room for grace
I hate canceling on people - I really dislike the word hate, but it is appropriately used here. When I cancel on someone I feel as if I have let them down. I want people to be able to count on me or at least feel like I am reliable. And I would say, that yes, in most things I am reliable. I'm fairly certain I have these feelings because growing up, if we said we were going to do something, we followed through and did it well. That's just what we did. No quitting. No regrets. You always showed up; rain or snow, we walked to church. Busy or not, we showed up. I am so thankful for those lessons, because I feel like it has given me opportunities to meet Jesus by serving and being there for others. However, sometimes I over-do it. Sometimes I want to be there for everything and I just physically can't. And my kiddos physically can't either. And I'm not sure it is my best self forward...or my kiddos best self forward. I suffer fr...